Oh Heavenly Father, please help me to understand the things that hurts us.
Please make Your Will known to me and help me to be obedient.
Enlighten our minds and heart in every decision and act we do.
Strengthen my faith most especially at times when things doesn't go our way.
Help me become an instrument for healing, reconciliation, and forgiveness that I may help my brothers and sisters in Christ....
Father, please give me the strength and understanding on how to help others unconditionally, having no expectations.
Forgive me Lord for the sins I committed and please help me not to do the same mistakes again.
I pray for my family and friends that they may always be safe and in good health.
I humbly ask for your guidance Lord to look after my husband and my son KD that they may always be healthy and safe.
I pray for the Philippines Lord our country that we may surpass every challenges, that the economy will prosper, that we may be spare from tragedy.
Lord, whatever Your Will is for me, let it be. For through You, I have everything. I shall not want.

All glory to our One Creator. Amen.

Shame on You!

A child is a priceless gift, a miracle of life given by GOD and no man has the right to forsake nor be rue. Many are those who have been desolate and prayed for a child. Their hearts have beg and bleed so that they may have given even one chance to bear a child. Shame on those people who have thought diffirently and I feel so disgusted by their dearth of conscience! How could someone be so heartless?! Just because of selfish reasons, unjust treatment and inevitable circumstances!

Going on my 7Th Month!

Yipeeeee I am on my 27th weeks of pregnancy! On my 24th month I have to be rush by my husband at the ER beacuse of my chest getting thighter and heavier good thing is it was just because of GERD ( Gastroesophageal Reflux Disease due to acids being accumalated. After that too much heat here in the Philippine cause my nose to bleed tht again needed to check fortunately it was common to a pregnant woman. Though I have came across with such challenged I am very greatful that it wasn't that bad and a normal stage for a pregnant woman to go through. Now, I have to wait for my gloucuse test to be normal for my sugar so that I wouldn't have to go through a Gestational Diabetis.

5th Month

Time seems like passing by like a speed of light. Now, I am on my 5th month enjoying my baby's strong kicks, sudden food cravings and caressing my child inside my womb. Hubby is very supportive, affectionate and strict with everything I do. My RE advised me to cut off some sweets and salty food because we gain more weight than we should, though physically it's not noticeable that I gained but it seems like my baby does. In addition my hubby is also enjoying their basketball league and will be having their championship on Sunday which I will be watching too. ;) Thank God that everything is going well and hoping that it would always do.

An Update!!!

Good Day Everyone! I know I have been silent in awhile and I apologized to my understanding followers. But now I am back hopefully cohesively I can write as much as I can. Time really fly so fast now I am on my 17th weeks of pregnancy and I cannot fully unravel the happiness it brought to our life. Luckily up to now my pregnancy is going smooth sailing and praying that it will until I deliver. My husband is so caring more than before and spoiling me with all his affection, patience and understanding. See, at home I wake up with prepared food to ate and haven't been obliged to do house hold chores. He even doesn't want us to commute when we go to the grocery but would always insist to take a cab despite being expensive. At work I felt so special and love by people around me. We would wake up early morning by my baby's strong kick at 4 months to tell us he is hungry, it was time for the three of us to bond. I know my other blogger friends are still going through a rough time waiting for their special angel to come maybe that's why I was hesitant to write here in  my blog 'cause I know the feeling of being happy for that lucky person to be bless with a child but at the same the pain, envy, frustration it brings asking when can I have that same joyful blessings. Yet, I want you to know though it easy said than done but hope, pray and don't worry that's what Padre Pio my intercessor thought me and indeed I was bless at the right time.

Happy Holidays!

Merry Christmas and Happy New Year to everyone! I know its been a while since I posted something here. Lot's of things had happened.  The first most blessed gift I received is that I am on my 10 weeks being pregnant. A joy I received unexpectedly and has made me more exultantly happy. Two months ago I was experiencing a bad dyspepsia so I went to my Gastroenterologist for a check up. I knew I had missed my period but wasn't expecting too much from it scared to fail again. Out of my conscience I did a pregnancy test and was surprised to see 2 red lines frantically I didn't believed it so I bought another one and it still is positive. Went to my RE and was confirmed on the ultrasound to be 6 weeks pregnant. We give thanks to OUR LORD and for Padre Pio for interceeding for us. To all my blogger friends please don't lose hope, continue praying and have faith at the right time OUR LORD will bless you with a child. Will continue to pray for each one of you.

Close Road Ahead?!

I was arguing with myself silently if I should post what I  feel right now. Guess I have no choice because these is my only place of comfort and peace. I don't want to worry my husband over my new challenge and I don't want to make him feel depress and sad too. Last May or June my good friend Yhaz told me that she was pregnant, I was both happy and sad. See, Yhaz and Cathy are my two good friends who were really my big spiritual and emotional supporter regarding my desire to have my own child. Yhaz was with us when we tried to complete the 9 days Novena for St. Jude Thaddeus though she really didn't expect that she would be bless with a child we are all ecstatic with joy. Then I must admit to myself that somehow I was disappointed and hurt of course my notion is I was the one asking for a miracle but I failed. It didn't make me bitter or mad just as any other people would be I was a bit envious, a pity one. Nonetheless the love and joy the child brings us filled the emptiness inside. 

Now, again I must face another challenge that will test my understanding, patience and courage. Another friend is pregnant with her first child after only months of marriage. Gladness and wishful thoughts for her and her family is what I felt and think. But then again Yes I admit I'am envious again. For the nth time I have to face another heart ache, learn to comprehend my own situatation, widen my patience and strengthen my courage to withstand negative thoughts and questions over my head.  Sometimes I wish I won't know if the people I knew are pregnant not because I don't want to share their happiness its just that maybe it would spare me the pain and questions why am I not? I wanted to cry now but I am at work seems like tomorrow before I sleep that's if  I could sleep, I know I will cry my heart out. I Will be trying to obliterate questioning HIS will and ways and just focus on praying and hoping . But for now can I just pour my heart out?! Can somebody tell me whatelse should I do?! Feels like I am losing every inch of hope in me. Is the road ahead close for me?!