Hmm. my conscience- Catherine!!!!

I saw here coming down the stairs while I on the other hand is eating burger and fries. She apprehended me how stubborn I am to eat fast foods when she already have reminded me to eat healthy foods to aid my fertilization. I am trying to eat healthy, think wisely, positively and desist away from stressful, negative thoughts. Hmmm.. It is easy said than done. I am thankful for her thoughtfulness and very caring actions towards my journey on longing to have a child of my own. She is doing her best to keep me more optimistic each day that soon I will have my own child. But its hard, it's getting harder each day. How could I live my life without a child? I couldn't! I am 27 they say I'm still young and there are a lot of time for us to try until it'll be given. Yet, you can't deny the fact that the more it hasn't been done, the longer the pain lingers. She is my conscience and I am thankful for her, for always being a good listener, a robust-optimistic thinker and indulgent friend.

My heart bleeds, it longs and ache for an angel to complete our life. I feel incomplete, erratic and feckless. Last night as I was surfing the net I came across a panel for woman who have underwent HSG a procedure to check if you have a blockage in your fallopian tube. A lot of them is trying and longing to have a child, some have went to a lot of procedure just to have one but with no success. As I go on reading I learned that if one has a blocked fallopian tube(a lot of medical terms and conditions may vary) most of them needed procedure to correct it, sadly some aren't that successful. This made me scared, depress, lonely and slowly losing hope. My husband kept me of the cliff of depression, giving me positive outlook in life. Still, my heart bleeds and cry for a child.

Missing my Barkada!

Today, I met with my good old friend Ambo, he was one of the best people I have met in my high school life. It has been 10 years after our high school graduation and it seems like it was just yesterday. We talk about their simple get together at oyo’s house at tranghawan for it was their Brgy. Fiesta. Some of our barkada was there and how I really wish I was there with them. I can’t help but think about the times we have enjoyed spending noteworthy time with each other. All the happiest times I have is in my high school life, I was so fortunate to met them and shared precious memories that I will truly treasure in my life. The times that we would be so noisy and do absurd things that makes our teachers walk out of the room made me smile just to think of it. Going to the bakery shop to buy breads and ice candy for the snack was a simple, inexpensive treat; yet the time spending walking along the corridors, talking about silly yet peculiar, hilarious and stern stories made the moment worthwhile. Having to spend time till college was very tremendous experience for me, I was then thinking that going to school at the city well lessen the time and bond that we have. Contrary to that we became much closer and the friendship has become deeper. College life thought us a lot of things in our younger life, those were the times that we face and fought some circumstances in our own lives and came a time to test the vitality of our friendship. Some have deeply hurt us yet amazingly we surpass it all and have realized how we really value the friendship we have. What I am most amazed of is now that even when time and distance have separates us the bond is still strong and unbreakable. At times that we see each other or even talk over the phone I could still feel that things haven’t changed despite the facts that we rarely talk or see each other.

Today, I’ am dumbfounded by how time flew so fast and how I am so poignant of the fact that we merely have time to see nor talk with each other. I know I should never dwell on the past but adhere to the present and look forward to the future. But I am so exultant just to think of those times I have spent with the people who have made a great difference in my life and somehow became a big part of who I am today and will accept me for what will I become tomorrow. To you great friends I promise the that beyond time and distance even the heist of circumstances I will always remember and will never forget you beyond my life time.

Yesterday, we laugh, we smile and we clap.

Spending time with you is one hell of a good crap.

The bread, the cake and the good times we make.

I can face anything just for our friendships sake.

Today, we work, were tired and we complain.

Of how spending all our time with work and no more fun games.

The money, the career and the complains we make.

Dear friends make me sane again.

How time flew so fast that we hardly have time to relax.

If I could have one day to spend with you this will make me laugh.

Tomorrow, is another day to thank those people who stayed.

Stayed beyond time and distance and whatever it takes.

To the friends who made my life eloquent and exultant in many ways.

I can’t wait to see and spend prolific, jovial time with you again.

What is the one emotion that has everyone mystified?

What is the one emotion that has everyone mystified? LOVE!Love is the greatest gift we can ever hope to give or receive. Love is the one thing that can overcome so many of the difficult times that we are faced with in life. Love is so powerful - it can turn frowns into smiles. It can help mend the most broken heart. It can even turn all of the ugliness in the world into the most beautiful portrait we could ever have the pleasure to behold. I have learned that LOVE is when you give your ALL amidst everything that life may bring, accepting all his flaws despite the pain and dancing like lunatics in the rain.

When you love somebody deeply, they become your life. You cant prevent your heart falling in love despite all the flaws he can have. Love, can bring uncertainties yet willing to take a risk. It is when you have nothing left yet you feel full and abundant. But love is inseparable with pain. Pain is a test of loves journey. It is a time where arguments and misapprehensions occur, were rainbows disappears in the sky, when you say something that it becomes confounding and when two worlds collide. Some people surpass this test of love yet some relationship collapsed. We all faces different struggles in love and I believe that no one else can make or break to people but themselves as well. Learn to love without asking what you will give and what to received but love because it can never be catechized.