Christmas seems to be just outside the corner fast approaching. It's been quite a while since I made a Christmas Wish List for I only have been praying for one special wish-a child of my own. It's hard to be in a society that often criticizes, judge and gossips about other peoples misfortune or anguish. Few others seems to understand what were going through but rarely can we find a person close to us who are going through the same situation. Everyday I pray for enlightenment, wisdom and courage to withstand and understand this challenge I am going through. Aiming to be strong, optimistic and mirthful has been a great foundation of valor. Often times as I lay down on my bed thoughts of pregnancy, building a happy family and the smile of a child plays like a movie in my mind. And most of the time when I do so I resist or divert my mind on other things. See, its hard to wait, hope and look forward to when you even doubt your own self. I am only human I never can pretend that I am always strong most of time I am just hiding in my mask of pretension. Nonetheless, I keep my faith intact and indomitable for I know that OUR FATHER in heaven and all the angels and saints are my only hope. So, this year I will still keep on hoping, praying and try not to worry for God will answer my prayer.